Omg. You know I had to hold myself back from saying it on the phone, but tonight right before he went to bed, Deadicus told me he loved me. We haven't been dateing long, but he makes me feel like no other person has. When he said that and it appeared across my screen I was shocked. Then I realized he meant it and I cryed alittle. They were tears of joy, because I was scared that I might slip up and say it and scare him off. Now I know that I have nothing to be scared of. That is all I am going to say for now.

Treena

I am pesamistic about the internet dating-love thing after all is it possible to love someone hundreds of miles away.

Well you see the thing is Shane that we actually have met in real life right before we started dateing. I just got him to join LR to play with me since he lives in another state currently. Also sorry I am not on peoples. I just started back up in school and my classes have me swamped currently.

I personally do hope you are happy in your relationship Treena, unlike me the sick twisted halfling unable of being loved.

So I experienced first hand what a back stabbing bitch is. This girl who you know I was ok with on certain days and on others got on my nerves and I thought was a friend but not like a tight buddy buddy type friend cause well she seems kinda of disturbed or just way into her own little world that she believes everything that comes out of her mouth. Well anyways I told to her to back off and leave a guy alone, that apprantly I have fallen for hard and maybe the reason I can't keep a steady boyfriend at the moment, cause she was after him hard. Well he asked me if I wanted to go to the park cause I had a class at 10 am so I had to go to it and she invited her self along. Well while they were at the park she fucked him in the bathroom and had the nerve to brag about it to me. Needless to say I told her we were no longer friends and she called me a territorial bitch. I guess I missed out on alot when I dropped out of my crappy high school and got my GED. Enough ranting I am sorry if I go on or anything but umm. Until next time I guess.

Treena

Spiteful bitch needs a good old fashioned beating, go hurt her treena.

Hey treena, can I give her a what us jamestown city people like to call a 'Curb Stomp'??? lol I am sorry hun, I hope you feel better. It sucks when shit like that happens. *huggles*

So I apparently have no heart. Yah according to one of the three guys that I have strong feelings for I have no heart. I am all confused now. Should I take him out of the picture and try and work out my feelings for the other two or should I keep him in the picture and continue sorting out my feelings for all three. I haven't had the time to do my ritual to help me figure it out but I am scared that if I do it I will still be torn or worse off that my feeling point to the one that said I don't have a heart and he never loves me like I do for him. I love Deadicus yes but how can I truely give him all of me if I love him, the guy that says I have no heart, and someone else. I am so fucking confused now. So long for now till I post again.

Treena

OK so I am over that guy, but problem is I think that this new one I have started hanging with is I don't know. He makes me feel so different. I mean I have seen him and such but I never really hung out with him till Monday when a girl friend of mine said she wanted to hang and well. Him and another guy, her and me went to the cheap movies. Then last night we went to her house with some more people to Karokee. Last night we were flirting and well, he just makes me feel happy being around him. I am not going to push it though cause I have had commitment issues since the whole Guardian Bahamut (is the name i shall refer to him as) Issue about two and half years ago. Well I need to stop typeing cause the person I am talking about may read this and I need to stop.

So Till Next I type.
Treena

Here is my list of sex experiences I would like to have those that are striked out means I have done them already.

1) In the back of a car/truck
2) In a public place
3) In the rain
4) In the shower
5) Under the stars
6) Under the full moon
7) In the mountains
8) With someone I loved
9) In a bathroom stall
10) In a hotel

So I have apparently been in a slump for rps and I am sorry. I don't know its just with my eye surgery and school. Plus with me hanging out with this new guy. I have to see about doing a cleanseing on myself as well. Since that cock sucking, mother fucking bastard that said I had no heart, still has a place in my heart and I have to stop have feelings for him. Considering we never met face to face. Other then that I just been wanting to write poetry. So if I rp with you and I haven't replyed in awhile its cause I have writers block and not wanting the rp to repeat itself. Hope you understand and I will attempt to revive it. Till next time.
Treena

So my spring break has started. I have a whole week to be bored yay. I might just play WoW and see about hanging with some friends. I mean of course I was stuck in this guy triangle thing but now instead of three guys its two. One I won't see for a week and the other well he has a car now and I will be able to see him. I not sure what to do though. The one I will see has a gf and I really do have feelings for him just like I do the other but I am so confused. I have also started talking with one of my ex boyfriends again. He was actually nice to me when he dumped me. Yes its the one that broke my heart. I guess it just took me this long to get over it and for my meds to really balance me out. So welcome to another episode of Treena's life. What a soap opera it is. I guess that is all for now. So talks to yalls laters.
Treena