Alrighty then, so, new things:

-Fiance= I don't know what to think anymore.
-School= IS getting boring
-Home= I'm tired of it
-Work= I'm loving it
-Everything else?

I don't know.

Just look as school as a means to an end. A way to get better paid to do the work you love. Work is a way to get a home you like. Keep looking forward.

Indeed, once you have that good job, have a good life, with everything else, you will be so happy it'll be unbelievable ^^

True.



Hmm, cool.

Thanks guys.

6 Days.
6 Days too long.
6 Days Of No Talking.
6 Days Without You.
6 Days of loneliness
6 Days I can't take.

1 Day Was okay.
2 Days was fine.
3 Days was interesting.
4 Days made me sad
5 Days made me worry
6 Days.....made me cry.

Do I keep going? Do I just give up? Do I just stop? Do I quit? Do I deny it? Do I end it? What do you want? What do you need? Why do you do this?

I need to keep going.
I can't give up.
I can't stop.
I can't quit.
I can't deny it.
I can't end it.

It's my life.
I do what I want.
I don't need this.
I relax with this.
I create with this.
You need to stop.
You need to trust me.
You need to believe in me.

Just trust me.
Just believe me.

I know I'm not perfect.
I know I can't be.
There is no such thing....

In more hour, I will be praying, and remembering someone very special to me.

On January 30th at 2am my cousin, killed him self with a gun. I watched him do it. I was ten years old when it happened. He felt like he had nothing else.... This happened eight years ago...

So I figured out why my fiance wasn't talking to me for six days.
He sold his computer to buy me this.
http://bpics.rubylane.com/graphics/shops/winterberryjewelry/WB-09-N-AngelWing.1L.jpg?76


I received it in the mail today.

He showed me the picture this morning (He got his friends extra laptop to use) of course the picture was the link and he was like "What do you think?"
I was like "Oh wow. Beautiful"
Then he said "Good"
An hour later the necklace was delivered to my house and I was like OH MY GOD.

The necklace is our 8 month anniversary present.

5 years knowing each other
1 year dating
8 months engaged

That is a very sweet jester. I do not know if it was the smartest thing to do though sense for what I can tell you can only talk to him via computer, but is is sweet none the less. And glad you found out why he had not been talking to you and that it was nothing bad.

It was very sweet. But...not that smart. Seeing as he doesn't have a computer now.

So, apparently my fiance is coming down in the next three-five months and is going to live with me for a whole year or two.

Nice. How is that going to work out?

Hmm? Well, he's gonna live in my house then we are going to go find an apartment together.

Alright, so something is terribly wrong with me....I've been feeling....weird.....

Lol, yeah I have been.

Tis okay Dawn I am in college as well second semester as well. I know what its like when the homework and research needs to be done. Take your time.

Thanks, I seem to have it balanced out now, so I should be good. If not you know why.

So, I edited a picture earlier, and I think it looks really cool.